Day-30: I'm 2-Weeks from Eating Dinner

30-Days... I have not had solid food in 30-days. 

In case you wondered, it is very annoying to not eat solids. Often it is not the skipping of the actual meals that bothers me but the foods between the meals or during the preparation of meals.

Things I miss:

• A handful of the boys cereal in the morning 
• Licking the knife after spreading peanut butter on the boys toast 
• A cookie or random baked good that floats so freely around the office 
• Some chips / crackers from the boys snacks 
• That broken 1/2 Pop tart sitting in our pantry, in a plastic bag
• A bite of whatever I'm cooking 
• A vegetable that has been roasting in the oven 
• Goldfish crackers
• Solid fruit

Cooking without taste is a little challenging. I'll taste sauces and the seasoning of stuff, but I won't chew anything, so my tasting can only go so far. Mostly I'm stuck following recipes, which I prefer to not do. 

With two weeks to go I've started thinking about food again. My first meal will be Holy Communion, which packs a lot of meaning and significances but lacks in flavor and sustenance. I had a buddy tell me that my first real meal should be Taco Bell, or Burger King, because no matter what I eat the food will be amazing.  There is a bone-in cowboy ribeye steak dominating the Taco Bell argument.  My wife, being the proactive person that knows me so well, suggested that my first meal be at the exact place where I had planned on it being, tax credits are not the only benefits to 10.5 years of marriage. 

With two-weeks to go I have noticed significant differences than when I first did this in 2011:

• I'm less cranky / irritable 
• I'm less moody 
• I have better control over the "crashes"
• I blog less and my posts seem to have less significance
• I drink a whole lot less (though I'm currently drinking a PBR)
• I don't worry about not making it the 44-Days but find myself annoyed that 44-Days is taking so long
• I have a 3rd child
• I'm finding less meaning in what I'm doing, but thinking I'm not looking hard enough 

I still have 14-days to get things figured out. 14-days to reflect, to search for meaning, to pray harder, to focus. I still have 14-days to make sure that this wasn't just a terrible 44-day weight loss plan. 

I finally stepped back on the scale, started the day at 192 lbs. I think I'll wait a few more days before I check my weight again.