It may not make sense but rice cereal is on my banned list - at least she gets to enjoy it.
I ran my first Grand Rapids, 5/3 Riverbank Run in 2002 and not again until 2008. 2008 was also the first time I ran a full marathon and then I didn't run either again until 2013. In 2009 I completed a full P90X course (my body looking nothing like the cover when I was done) and I'm yet to complete another circuit of that. I don't mention this to brag about something the athletic things I have completed but rather to show that it is not always so easy accomplish the same goal twice. I've found that the when accepting a challenge, a large portion of the motivation is completing that challenge. The pride in finishing something that that is a respectable challenge is an immense driving force.
Which brings me to Day-3 and a lot of wondering "why do this?". I've done this before, I've completed this task, I've seen the results so why do it again? It feels harder this time and less sincere, which confuses me because I want sincerity behind my motivations.
It's our day - our routine - the fact my wife and I live for the weekends. Not because have crazy, wild, action packed weekends, but because we do not. In 2011 we had two kids, at pretty manageable ages and it seems like our daily demands were less. Now we have three kids, with beautiful eyes above still at a high maintenance age. Monday - Friday is the same thing every day.
- Out of bed before 6:00AM
- Beth on the road by 6:45 AM
- Kids at daycare by 7:15AM
- Wife to Lansing by 8:00AM
- I'm to work by 7:45AM
- Work a full day, pick up the kids between 5:00 & 5:30 PM
- Beth home between 6:00 & 6:30 PM
- Dinner at 6:45 PM
- Deborah in bed at 7:30 PM
- Boys in bed at 8:00 PM
There's not a lot of time to do other things - like interact and play with kids, work out, family outings, shopping, time with the spouse, time with God. I know that he schedule is not overly unique: two busy working parents, but the lack of uniqueness do not diminish the stress it creates on a full stomach.
I already multitask the "down time" of my day. Kids watch a show while I cook dinner, I think about work in the shower, have a morning conversation with Beth on the drive to work, think about work while at work, work or personal calls on the way to get the kids after work. So the "Focus" aspect of what I'm doing is challenging and if I can't find time to focus why take the effort to not eat? Something to think about...
Started the day at 205 LBS, will finish around 1800 calories.
Why?? Because you have chosen this as your cross to bear and Jesus did not put down His cross. It is my opinion that yo should not feel guilty for not spending an immense amount of time with the Word or in prayer during this Lenten journey. If you end up doing that, it's wonderful, but your "sacrifice" is meant to give you a just a tiny glimpse into Jesus' world and a fraction of the feeling of what it's like to truly do something selfless that will take a toll on you. You're doing great so hang in there!
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